Personality

I'm almost always very calm, and really - never fangirls of any sort. When I see something very exciting, I just enjoy it to myself and... that's it. I'm a closet fangirl.

When seeing fellow fans of my favorite manga series, most of the time they're super duper hyper type of fans. Either that, or over-analyzing fanboys.

Is there any manga fan out there who are... moderate fans? Or maybe - they do exist, but they're all closet fanboys/fangirls that never express any opinions, thus I don't see them around. Probably.

When I first started to contact with my bosses of Anime Expo, they were a little afraid that I'd be too much of fangirly type. In email, I did act like one. I think of my own personality a boring one, and naturally the mood can be not-so-cheering, so I thought it'd be nice to be cheery/fangirly in those festivity type of place. Later my manager told me that he was glad that I was not a fangirl type of person, and said that he would be glad to have me next year, too. (Only that I might not be able to attend next year, depends on my wedding schedule.)


So when I'm "analyzing" my own personality from third person point of view, ... do I want to change my personality?

I know I had the exact same problem ten years ago. I remember writing in my diary that I want to be more outgoing when I come to the States. For some reason, I always have this mind set to think I can easily change my personality when the environment changes.

Sometime it was true - I did act a little bit more cheery during Anime Expo. I was a little more social then. It only works for short term though. Maybe it's like having some sort of drug to hype myself up. Heh.


I'd better sleep before I write some more stupid stuff.